Transfixation

It’s called many things in the cybersexual world; Sissy, trannie, shemale, ladyboy, etc. I like to call it transfixation and it affects us beta males in a big, big way! You could say it starts the mental transition away from real sex with females for us married betas into mental sex with males who are transformed partly into females yet have the penis we have and the insatiability we share. It’s a kind of sexual madness that we get drawn into via porn, then chat and, possibly, real meetings. I think about trans constantly along with my beta feelings and the two mix together more and more. A boy becomes a girl becomes a boy and it all gets so fluid as I masturbate and edge on and on and on...As this obsession takes hold, I begin to imagine life as a trans or a trans lover. Imagining how it would be to live with a trans or with a beta with the same obsessions. As my marriage to a biological woman is sexually over, I feel this need to trans myself into this erotic area more and more. Love to hear from other betas exploring this transfixation phenomena.